I knew I could do it!!

So I pushed myself today at the gym and I ran 10 miles!!!! WOOOO!! It took a little less than 2 hours but Ive never tried to go that far before so it felt awesome!!! I don't know what Ill do tomorrow morning but I'd like to stay above 5 miles every day this week! I said in a previous post that I would like to weigh 168 by Friday and I honestly believe I can achieve that goal!

Ive been thinking too much lol Ive been stressing myself out and its really out of my hands. It just takes a lot to realize that. I started thinking maybe I should be on some kind of medications like an anti depressant? But Ive gone that route and I really didn't like it. So I decided to be dedicated to taking my St. Johns Wart as directed to see if it will help. Along with that I take 4 different vitamins every night before I go to bed...calcium, b12 complex, womens multi vitamin, and iron. As far as my sleeping problems I found some melatonin that is 10mg and time release. Ive been taking it for the past few nights and it really has helped! Usually I wake up, get up, get a drink, wash my hands, put lotion on or other random things, but lately I feel so sleepy and comfy in my bed that I go right back to sleep!!

I feel like I'm taking baby steps, and each day I get a little closer to my goals. Closer to me, getting back to feeling like my old happy self again. I pray to God that I will find my way, find some direction, find where I am supposed to be. I know what I really want in life is to spend time with my family, make sure they are taken care of and that they are happy. I have to give it up to God because only he knows what my future has in store. I just have to hope for the best and do the best I can!! I tell myself everyday that good things are coming our way and not to stress over what I cant control. If I have to go back to work full time then I will find a way to make it work. For now I will take advantage of my free time, get healthy, and cherish every moment I am blessed to be able to spend with the people I love :)