Little by little....

I'm starting to see a difference!! I can feel the muscle tone in my legs and can see my abs flattening! I haven't been able to weigh myself on a good scale in a while but I don't really care at this point. I feel good so I'm happy with that :)

I finally got a good pair of running shoes!! Ive been using a pair that my friend gave me a while back and they are about a half size too big for me. Ive been getting cramps in my left foot and it makes it hard to push myself when I want to keep running.

I have been using some home remedies on my skin and haven't had enough time to make a judgement about them. Ive also kept up with treating my stretch marks and have notice a slight lightening :)

I have been stressing about work and I keep telling myself and everyone that it is in God hands and that I'm just gonna have to hope for the best. I had an interesting offer come up today so I'm gonna go with it and see what happens!!! Keeping my fingers crossed!!!

I have been working on my room as much as possible and little by little its coming together!!! Its weird how happy it makes me to do little things like organize my closet lol.

Its been so beautiful outside lately!! After the terrible freeze that hit us last week its so amazing to feel the warmth of the sun!!! So I'm hoping to be able to run outside soon!!! There are so many awesome trails around the foothills and now that Ive been getting in shape I'm excited to see how far I can go!!

I knew I could do it!!

So I pushed myself today at the gym and I ran 10 miles!!!! WOOOO!! It took a little less than 2 hours but Ive never tried to go that far before so it felt awesome!!! I don't know what Ill do tomorrow morning but I'd like to stay above 5 miles every day this week! I said in a previous post that I would like to weigh 168 by Friday and I honestly believe I can achieve that goal!

Ive been thinking too much lol Ive been stressing myself out and its really out of my hands. It just takes a lot to realize that. I started thinking maybe I should be on some kind of medications like an anti depressant? But Ive gone that route and I really didn't like it. So I decided to be dedicated to taking my St. Johns Wart as directed to see if it will help. Along with that I take 4 different vitamins every night before I go to bed...calcium, b12 complex, womens multi vitamin, and iron. As far as my sleeping problems I found some melatonin that is 10mg and time release. Ive been taking it for the past few nights and it really has helped! Usually I wake up, get up, get a drink, wash my hands, put lotion on or other random things, but lately I feel so sleepy and comfy in my bed that I go right back to sleep!!

I feel like I'm taking baby steps, and each day I get a little closer to my goals. Closer to me, getting back to feeling like my old happy self again. I pray to God that I will find my way, find some direction, find where I am supposed to be. I know what I really want in life is to spend time with my family, make sure they are taken care of and that they are happy. I have to give it up to God because only he knows what my future has in store. I just have to hope for the best and do the best I can!! I tell myself everyday that good things are coming our way and not to stress over what I cant control. If I have to go back to work full time then I will find a way to make it work. For now I will take advantage of my free time, get healthy, and cherish every moment I am blessed to be able to spend with the people I love :)

BRRR!!

This week has been kinda weird. The temp dropped like crazy and it was the coldest it has ever been in Albuquerque! Therefore I missed two days at the gym :( I went on Wednesday to get my measurements done though and also worked out. I'm still 38, 26, 38 and 173 (so I lost 5 lbs!!) but I also discovered that I am 36% body fat :/ Don't really like that number! But at least now I know and at the end of March we will be measured again and I'm excited to make a big difference and see results!

I painted my entire room and I LOVE IT!! Now I'm just waiting till I get a little more money so I can do the other improvements to my room that I have planned. The paint is called Drizzling Mist and it came out so perfect!

My daughter didn't have school all week due to the snow and the coldness. The school were shut down all over the state because there was no gas to heat them!! NM has been in a state of emergency! Thank God we had no problems at my house!! It was just too dang cold to go anywhere! I really cant wait till summer now lol

Work sucked today, which is not normal cause I love working at the gym, but it seems like its gone from an awesome job to a crappy one. I even feel like the free membership isn't worth it!!! But I'm gonna stick it out cause I think today was just an off day.

My daughters father spent the night a few nights ago and thought it would be funny to tackle my on my bed, however I just rearranged my room and my bed wasn't properly set on the frame so in mid tackle my heel hit the corner of the iron frame and punctured me deeply :( It still hurts to walk so I'm a little worried about running! But since I missed a few days last week I'm gonna hit the gym tomorrow morning, I really wanna try to run 10 miles tomorrow. Just to see if I can do it. If my heel starts hurting or bleeding I'm gonna stop. Cardio is my favorite part about working out though so I hope I don't have any problems. 

I started treating my stretch marks and I'm trying a few things on my face right now. I haven't seen much of a difference, but its only bee a week. I'm keeping my hopes up :D 

Next week is gonna be week 3 so I'm hoping to get down to 168ish lol which would mean I will have lost 10lbs in 3 weeks and that is half of my goal!! Ill be really proud of myself so I'm gonna keep trying really hard! I know I can do it!!!

SNOW!!!

It was soooo cold yesterday, and there I was with the windows open in my bedroom painting away!! LOL! I finished about a wall and a half before the lil monkey had to be picked up from school. Its tedious to paint the trim and borders and when you have OCD like I do it takes forever!! Haha! But it looks BEAUTIFUL!!! I'm so excited to continue today! My bestie is hopefully coming by to help me and if she does I have a feeling we can finish it all! I learned a little trick on HGTV on how to paint perfect borders, I was a little sceptical but I put in the time and effort and it came out AMAZING!! I LOVE IT!
So I went to the gym yesterday and did 6 miles of cardio and maintained a diet right at about 1500 calories if not less :) I did real good lol. So we've got about 5 inches of snow on the ground and its supposed to continue till Wednesday. I think I'm gonna get all geared up and head out to the gym anyways. I'm really determined to make some big changes and if I let myself slide one day its gonna be a domino effect and Ill fall way off track.
Im gonna go make some breaky for my little love bug and then get ready for the gym! My sister is also off from school so shes gonna babysit till I get back. She is also going to help me do something a little drastic to my hair. I'm a little nervous, but my sister is very talented and I have faith that she wont make me look like an idiot lol. THENNNNNN painting is going down! I want to finish today so I'm gonna work hard to get it done. Its hard to sleep when my room is so out of order. But I'm really excited to get it all back together :D

CHANGE IN PLANS!!!

While I was at work yesterday I was asked if I wanted to join the Employees Only 8 week fitness challenge? And I was like "HELL YEAH!" We will have our measurements taken, and the winner will be determined by loss in inches and overall weight loss. The diet and exercise plans are all up to us! 1st place takes home $100!! Now Ill be competing against personal trainers and fitness instructors, so ITS TIME TO STEP UP MY GAME!!! I really want to get serious about this. I did really well this week with my gym routine, but the diet part was only so so. Starting Monday, I'm going to ease into a new diet plan. I'm terrible at counting calories so I'm gonna eat when I'm hungry, not gonna starve myself, but I'm going to restrict my choices. Time to make healthy decisions!!!!
My appointment for measurements is on Wednesday at 1pm. I don't know if we will be getting our measurements taken periodically or only again at the end of the 8 weeks, but I'm gonna try to get them again at the half way point.
I would have to say that even though I want to be excited about a lot of things today, I'm in the most terrible mood! Nothing seems to make me feel better :( I just wanna curl into a ball and DIE! That would be the PMS talking! I'm having severe cramps and lower back pain :( This usually will only last a day or two so hopefully Ill feel better by Monday. But geez!!! I hate feeling this way!!! It doesn't help that my entire body is sore from working out all week! But I'm glad I did :)
As for working out yesterday, today, or tomorrow....not happening!  I wasn't really planning on it anyways, and with the way if feeling it would just be bad lol. So I guess theres a lot to look forward to next week :) I wonder if my measurements will be any different then when I got them done in December? Better? Worse? Who knows, but Ill find out Wednesday :)
Now I just gotta do my best to enjoy the rest of the weekend!

Emotional day!

So I went to the gym as planned today but all the ellipticals were taken so I decided to jump on the treadmill to get warmed up....bad idea! I feel like I'm falling apart!! Both my ankles were aching! So after half a mile I decided to take a potty break and see if there might be any freed up when I was done....luckily one did! I changed things up a bit though. I was supposed to do 2-3 miles of cardio abs and lower body, but I ended up doing abs and 6 miles of cardio burning over 600 calories :)
Today was pretty emotional though. Our family has had some issues with my older brother ever since he got married and its been really hard on everyone. Its been almost two years since we've all been together and I just cant take it anymore! So I decided to take the 1 hour round trip out to his house and confront him. It wasn't as harsh as I thought it was gonna be, but it still hurt. Ive been crying about it all morning and ever since I drove away. But I know that what I did was right and that I planted a seed. So I will continue to try to make things right and I know that my Dad will help me fix our family.
Tomorrow I'm working all day then going out to my best friends house so I wont be working out at the gym. Luckily she has an Ab Circle as well so Ill jump on that for a few minutes to keep up with my routine :) I haven't figured out yet if Ill be doing anything special Saturday cause my mom and sister wanna hang out, so we will just have to see. I don't know if I will weigh myself tomorrow but I'm sure the curiosity will get to me. I feel great though and I put on my size 13 jeans with no problem today :) I'm really hoping they'll start to feel baggy on me soon!!
So I'm keeping my hopes and doing the best I can. Praying every night that God will give me strength and guidance :)

Taking it wasy on myself

So I did pretty good on my diet last night. I did however forget to do the Ab Circle. DANG IT!! Also I think I took too much of the Redline yesterday cause I couldn't sleep AT ALL last night.

Went to the gym this morning, took only a few sips of the redline, and decided to do all 3 miles on the elliptical. It felt good and my knee is feeling better. I did Abs and upper body. Ive been sore but after running and stretching I'm feeling really good!! I was supposed to go to an Ab class tonight but my mom surprised us by taking us out to a Colombian restaurant for dinner!! I love it! It really is my favorite food!! I did so well on my diet all day that eating there didn't really throw it off....but I haven't eaten the flan yet lol!!

Ive been stressing a little about finances but I have to keep telling myself that everything will work out and that I just need to be patient. I know that God has a plan for me :)

I went to Walgreens with a couple extra bucks and got a shower mitt and some Epsom's salt to get started on my experiment for removing my stretch marks!! I also took some before pics of my body, stretch marks, and a close up of the acne on my face. I think the after pics will be amazing! Tee pic of my face is terrible cause I'm about to start so my face is breaking out so bad, any pic after this week will show a huge difference lol. The body pic I took in this amazing neon yellow bikini that I got last summer from Victorias Secret and Ive never worn in public so I really cant wait to see how much I can improve my body and hopefully get to wear it for real some day!!

So I'm keeping my hopes up and trying to stay focused. It will be really nice to go out to my best friends house this weekend. Its so far out of town that it always feels like a mini vacation :)

So gym again tomorrow morning and gonna have to find some time this weekend hopefully, to squeeze in another work out. Also I really need to be drinking more water! So Ill keep moving forward and really try to keep my hopes up :D